Author's note -- Glimpse -- Tom Terrific -- Beezer -- Finding Lydia -- Killer Krug -- Too much -- Knollwood -- Therapy -- Seat 13A -- Leaving Lydia -- Into the gray -- Gay lite -- Black hole -- Coming home -- Going public -- The note -- Swimming upstream -- Getting my groove on -- Letting go -- The end of it -- Complete -- After -- Acknowldegements -- Reader prompts -- About the author.

"What is the price of living an authentic life? Ellen Krug knows . As a man named, "Ed," she had everything anyone could ever want: a soul mate's love, two beautiful daughters, a house in the best neighborhood, a successful trial lawyer's career -- a Grand Plan life so picture-pefect it inspired a beautiful pastel drawing. But there was a problem: "Ed" was a woman born into a male body. Finding inner peace meant Ed would have to become Ellen. It also meant losing that picture-perfect life. How could anyone make that choice, pay that kind of price? Then again, how could anyone not? Through what became a "gender journey," Ellen Krug discovered her true self and the honesty it takes to make life-changing decisions. Getting to Ellen is more than one person's story about some things lost and others gained. It's a glimpse into the life choices that all of us make -- whether or not we're transgender."